” a direct and lasting legacy of American slavery”

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The Charleston Imperative Statement—Read. Sign.

As we grieve for the nine African Americans who were murdered in their house of worship on June 17 2015, those of us who answer the call of feminism and antiracism must confront anew how the evils of racism and patriarchy continue to endanger all Black bodies, regardless of gender.

As antiracists, we know that the struggle against racial terror is older than the Republic itself. In particular we remember the work of Ida B Wells who risked everything to debunk the lies of lynchers over 100 years ago. Today, we see that fierce determination in Bree Newsome who scaled the 30-foot flagpole at the South Carolina state Capitol and brought down the Confederate flag. As feminists, we recognize how racism has been — and is still — gendered. Patriarchy continues to be foundational to racial terrorism in the US, both in specious claims that justify the torture of Black men in defense of white womanhood, and in its brutal treatment of Black women and girls. We also recognize that while patriarchy and racism are clearly intertwined, all too often, our struggles against them are not….

Read the full statement and sign here.

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“In the age of information, ignorance is a choice.”

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“You now lie under the foot of a woman.”

St. Margaret [of Antioch] was the patron saint of peasants and women in childbirth, the latter not because she had children but because [sic] she was swallowed by the devil in the form of a dragon, and her purity and resistance were so great that he had to spew her up again whole and unhurt….The governor, Olybrius, saw her, wanted her, and had her brought to him. She refused him and declared her faith. She was imprisoned, flogged, and terribly tortured. In prison she was swallowed by the dragon; and when she triumphed over the dragon, the devil confronted her again, this time in the form of a sympathetic man who told her that she had suffered too much:

But she seized his hair, hurled him to the ground, and placing her foot on his head, exclaimed:

“Tremble, great enemy. You now lie under the foot of a woman.”

Dworkin, Andrea. Intercourse. NY: Free Press, 1987. Print. 93.

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Age was never a central or peripheral concern for me in the way it was “supposed” to be. I was always youngest in the class, younger than my friends and peers, but between the ages of 12 and 20, I looked older than I actually was. Men tried to pick me up when I was 12, 13 because they thought I was in high school or at least a mature-enough-to-pluck 16. At 16, they thought I was in college and a little old to be unattached and/or childless. I walked into bars that older friends couldn’t get into. Somewhere in my 20s, it toppled the other way and I was assumed to be 5, 6, 10 years younger—I got carded more in my 30s than I did from 15 when I started going to bars to when I finally turned 21 my senior year in undergrad [the first time]. I still get carded occasionally, can still fool almost anyone anytime and get that ego-stroke of not looking like I’m in my late 40s, smoked 20 years, and still sneer at Clean Living.


Then there’s 50. Which I will see in less than 2 years. And that is a tipping point. Some things have either been done or may never get done, and with what I have left, decisions will have to be made, losses racked up, ideas scrapped, possibilities torn and thrown out, self-image [the future one] kalidoscoped into yet another fucking life inside this life that I half-chose and half made lemonade with and I’ve already had several lives and this AS one is a tiring addition to the others I’m trying to salvage.

And not all choices are real “choices.” Some “choices” happen. You realize later and piece together some threads of thought and/or hindsight and/or complete bullshit to tell yourself that, in retrospect, you did choose, you used your free will, you are your own dogma and pomp and circumstance.

I can live with that being bullshit.

It’s harder to live with things being taken away before you get around to them.

Or before you knew you wanted them.

My adventures will be much smaller, with a smaller pool of participants and spectators. Many of the things I thought I’d get to later I won’t get to at all. Physical and social goals. Intellectual plans, goals, germs and kernels. Instead of a room of boxes, I’ll have 2, maybe 4 special boxes well-worn and over-decorated because that’s all I fucking have and get because there is not enough ___ and time is not mine. Time happens. Every decade your head bobs up, you squint, stare, frown and then you’re back under. When you are lucky.

50 gives even me pause.

I didn’t plan to be the woman artist/___ who breathes shallowly until the kid or kids leave home but I did plan to burst like an untended tropical forest when that kid did leave home. Now I’m looking at a courtyard garden. I like courtyards. And I will miss what isn’t there. But so it is.

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What You Might Do

Ankylosing Spondylitis

Ankylosing Spondylitis: Myths from Drugs.com


“inflammatory arthritis” + “pain management” = Tylenol?!?


Day 2316: Enthesitis and Peripheral Joint Synovitis

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hctiB rosseforP: Back When We Were Rich

originally posted Feb 16, 2013

from Wikipedia:

The overall median 9 month salary for all professors was $73,000, placing a slight majority of professors among the top 15% of earners at age 25 or older. [7: US Census Bureau, 2006] Yet, their salaries remain considerably below that of some other comparable professions (even when including summer compensation) such as lawyers (who earned a median of $110,000) and physicians (whose median earnings ranged from $137,000 to $322,000 depending on speciality). [19;20: U.S. Department of Labor, 2007] According to the U.S. Department of Labor,

[Academic year] salaries for full-time faculty averaged $73,207. By rank, the average was $98,974 for professors, $69,911 for associate professors, $58,662 for assistant professors, $42,609 for instructors, and $48,289 for lecturers. Faculty in 4-year institutions earn higher salaries, on average, than do those in 2-year schools. In 2006–07, faculty salaries averaged $84,249 in private independent institutions, $71,362 in public institutions, and $66,118 in religiously affiliated private colleges and universities. [21: U.S. Department of Labor, 2007]

Salaries varied widely by field and rank ranging from $45,927 for an assistant professor in theology to $136,634 for a full professor in “Legal Professions and Studies.” [22: HigherEdJobs.com, 2006] Another study by the College and University Professional Association for Human Resources found the average salary for all faculty members, including instructors, to be $66,407, placing half of all faculty members in the top 15.3% of income earners above the age of 25. Median salaries were $54,000 for assistant professors, $64,000 for associate professors and $86,000 for full professors 2005. [23: College and University Professional Association for Human Resources, 2005] During the 2005–06 year, salaries for assistant professors ranged from $45,927 in theology to $81,005 in law. For associate professors, salaries ranged from $56,943 in theology to $98,530 in law, while salaries among full professors ranged from $68,214 in theology to $136,634 in law. [22] During the 2010–11 year, associate professor salaries vary from $59,593 in theology to $93,767 in law.[24: “Average Faculty Salaries by Field and Rank at 4-Year Colleges and Universities, 2010–11”] Full professors at elite institutions commonly enjoy six-figure incomes, such as $123,300 at UCLA or $148,500 at Stanford. [25: 2006] The CSU system, which is the largest system in the U.S. with over 11,000 faculty members, had an average full-time faculty salary of $74,000 in 2007, which had been scheduled to increase to $91,000 by 2011. [26: “CSU Public Affairs Office, 2007] Unfortunately for these faculty, the ensuing crash of the U.S. economy resulted in temporary pay reductions and total salary stagnation at the 2007 level instead, with this same level of pay now forecast to persist through 2015 at least, in spite of ongoing inflation. Professors in teacher education sometimes earn less than they would if they were still elementary classroom teachers. … Adjunct college instructors often make $20,000–$35,000/year, even while teaching at several institutions. [clarification needed] However, adjunct college instructor salaries can range between $40,000 – $100,000/year in states with higher costs of living. Adjunct instructors generally have to teach at several institutions to earn higher salaries.

In 2003, as an adjunct at the University, I made $2000 per class and taught 2. According to The Adjunct Project, that adjunct salary is still about the same for the NO area.

Once I became full-time, my salary was $39,000 in the 2003-2004 and 2004-2005 academic years, a 9-month salary paid in 12 months. I taught mostly first-year composition with the occasional creative writing class and World Lit; all of them were writing classes and in the “non-composition” World Lit and creative writing courses, the reading was heavy, near 50-100 pages a week per section, and I had to not only read but prepare and prepare for at least 3 scenarios—everyone read; half the class read; no one read. I had classes 5 days a week and worked most weekends [Saturday and/or Sunday] grading or prepping so I probably put in 60-70 hours a week Fall 2003-Spring 2005. [I didn’t teach summers. For 1 week I’d read and then spend the next month trying to write and by August 1, I stopped writing so I could start prepping for the fall semester. I’d spend about 6 weeks actually writing when I could. Once, a mother at the private school The Girl went to back then said to me she “hated” the parents who sent their kids to camps and classes all summer, and she and her 3 kids lounged around in their pajamas and slept late all summer long. I told her that summer was the only time I could do my own work so yes, The Girl was scheduled for at least half the weeks of the summer break. We never had a conversation again after that.]

For the 2005-2006 academic year, I was to make $39,585. Then Katrina hit the Gulf Coast and NO flooded. I was fired via an email that began “Dear Non Tenure Faculty.” I’d gotten about 6 checks totaling about $9846 before taxes and deductions. When I was rehired for the January 2006-June 2006 academic “year” as a non-tenured instructor, I earned $19,792.44 for 4 classes each semester [we had 2], so for that 2005-2006 academic year, I got about $29,639, about $9000 less than my tenure-track contract. 

In 2006-2007 when we made it back to a campus-in-progress, I was again tenure-track and my salary went back to $39,585. The next year, I wanted to quit but took an unpaid sabbatical instead; the first contract had my salary still at $39,585 but the same day contracts were revised and I got a raise to $41,584. Let me repeat—I took an unpaid sabbatical that year. I came back for the 2008-2009 year for $43,642, revised the same day from $41,564. Then I quit. I have no idea what I would’ve been offered for the next academic year, but I could see what was coming down and left before I could be unfairly denied tenure [I had all the publications and university service I needed] because the University was trying to reduce payroll costs almost exclusively from faculty, and particularly tenure-track faculty.

Oh, and during all those years, I made more than Mister did. A good chunk more. I was, of all things, the head bread-“winner.”

When I’d tell people what my job was back then, I always got raised eyebrows and nods of Oh-wow-you-make-a-LOT-of-money! and no one believed that public school teachers made more than I did. The assumption, I guess, was [is?] that all college professors make the kinds of salaries you see at Harvard, Yale, Stanford, Princeton, UCLA. Most make nowhere near that much; salary depends on your area, and English is traditionally on the lower end of the scale with the hard sciences and business closer to the top of the scale, at least in my experience. And things will not get better:

The Bureau of Labor Statistics predicts a 17 percent increase in jobs for post-secondary professors in all disciplines between 2010 and 2020, a bit better than average for all professions. However, most opportunities will appear in part-time or non-tenure track jobs and at for-profit schools. At public colleges, hiring will be constrained by tight budgets. Nursing and engineering professors, for example, will fare better than English and humanities teachers.

Salaries will drop even lower but not look like they are because there will be and still are some folks at the top getting paid near or actually 6 figures. The shift to a part-time, at-will pool of instructors will have its negative effects but fits with the “new” “ideas” about education—that instructors/teachers are simply cogs that can be replaced with just about any warm body, and that collective bargaining and contracts and commitments from an employer are the reasons why the US is “behind” the rest of the world in name-that-subject. I have not been able to find the reasoning behind that anywhere, how having a contract makes someone a “worse” teacher than a temporary hire, how de-professionalizing teaching with minimally-trained warm bodies makes education, K-12 or higher education, more “efficient” and therefore “better.”

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hctiB rosseforP: Dear University Student: The Complete Edition

Now that most of that grading shit is over….All the Dear University Students in one convenient post.

[See Certifiable Princess’ Dear Patients of Any Doctor for the original inspiration that made me almost piss my pants.]

Dear University Student,

To make this first semester easier for you and, especially, me, let’s set some ground rules:

1. Do not give me Katrina-sized attitude because you do not want to take an English class. I did not make the core curriculum. If I had, you’d not only take more English courses but all freshpersons would start in the grammar and expository writing class.

2.Do not tell me you were in AP English then wait for a response. I do not care if you were in AP English or if you are directly descended from Langston Hughes or W. E. B. DuBois. You will not pass this course because of your grades in high school or genetic potentialities.

3. Do not tell me how your English teacher in high school a) never asked you to __, b) let you turn in extra credit work at the end of the semester to salvage your grade, or c) did not correct your work for grammar, expecting me to do the same things. This is not high school, I keep my job if you fail and no one will intimidate me into passing a student who cannot punctuate a 5-word declarative sentence.

4. Do not ask me if you need to buy the textbooks. I would not require the books if we were not going to use them.

5. Do not walk into class and ask, before I have unpacked my bag, “Are we doing anything today?” This is not your idea of high school where the classroom is a rest stop between hallway social engagements. If we weren’t going to do something in class, I wouldn’t be here.

6. I hold office hours at specified times and you will not find me in my office before or after those times or on days when no office hours are scheduled. Do not try to lodge a complaint with my chair or dean because I am not in my office on Wednesday at 4:30 when my office hours are Tuesday 1-3.

7. Do not walk up to the front of the class in the middle of a lecture or in-class assignment to ask about your grade, your last paper or how many absences you have. I am teaching and you are not the only person in the room. Ask before or after class or send an email. A polite one.

8. Do not in any email to a professor or anyone of higher status or education write, “Get back with me.” Save that for your friends.

9. Do not email worries about not getting an A in my course. I do not care if you get an A or an F or a W. You get what you earn, not what you want.

10. Do not expect me to repeat myself because you were fixing your hair in a mirror, reading a book, or talking to the girl behind you. This is common sense and needs no explanation.

11. Do not assume that if you complain to my chair or dean about a grade that the chair or dean will immediately chastise me and raise your grade. The first thing either will want to see is the assignment sheet, what you turned in and what comments I made. They might also want to know if you have talked to me first, attended office hours, requested conferences or missed too many days of class. My chair even knows the content of the course and has every right to quiz you orally on the assignment under dispute. Generally, you will lose. I am a professional, not some ho they pulled off the street 5 minutes ago.

12. Do not ask your parents to call, write or email me on your behalf. If you have never taken responsibility for yourself before, now is the time to do so. Do not tell your parents that I am a mean and unfair teacher then neglect to admit you have missed half the classes, never bought the textbook, sleep half the time you do show up for class or didn’t turn in a 300-point portfolio you had 4 weeks to complete.

13. Do not answer your cell phone during a conference or when you are asking for explanation of an assignment. Your time is not more valuable than mine. I am also a person with a life.

14. Look at my class, and your other classes, as a full-time job. You are expected to show up every day dressed and ready to work with the requisite materials, be that a textbook, a handbook, a newspaper article, a pen or your ability to think. I come to work every day. Do you?

15. Do not look blankly at a piece of paper, like an essay assignment, and ask me “what it means.” Read.

16. Do not tell me “how hard” you work. I do not care how hard you work nor do I see any of that. All I see is the final product. That is what I grade, not some amorphous quantity of time you call “effort.”

17. I do not “work” for you. This is not a service industry. This is education. You get out of it what you put into it, both of which are up to you.

18. Do not blow off half the classes of the term then expect me to work overtime to tutor you and grade 4 weeks of late homework and late essays. This should also be common sense.

19. Do not expect a ‘Congratulations!’ or free pass because you tell me 3/4 into the semester that you ‘never bought the books.’ Do not tell me this after an open book quiz and wait for a response.

20. Do not turn in 3 or 4 weeks of missed homework, essays and assignments on the day midterm grades are due. Not only are you not my sole student but I see no reason to bust my ass because you didn’t bother to apply yourself for the last EIGHT weeks.

21. Do not insist that we must have a conference 3 weeks into the new semester when I have already told you, in writing, from my official University email, twice, that you completed 2 out of 12 assignments and didn’t submit an out-of-class essay worth 20% of your final grade. Or the final project worth 30% of your final grade.

22.a. Sending 4 copies of a week-late assignment will not improve your grade.

b.The syllabus says two important things about email: check your account daily and allow me 24-48 hours to reply–i.e., do not ignore your email account, and my emails about your grades and missing assignments, for 1-4 weeks then barrage me with panicked emails every hour because I have yet to respond to your last email.

c. If your assignment is late, attach it to your excuse-laden-but-I-don’t-want-to-make-excuses email. Submitting the late assignment 2 days after the excuse email tells me that it’s late because you never bothered to do it, and, instead of doing it when you realized your error, spent time composing an excuse instead of the assignment.

Dear University Student: May 27, 2006

Dear University Student #19: May 30, 2006

Dear University Student #20: November 13, 2006

Dear University Student #21: February 14, 2007

Dear University Student #22a, b, & c: May 5, 2007

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Guns Only Exist for Violence

There. I said that shit.

Wear orange to fight guns and honor Hadiya Pendleton: http://chicago.suntimes.com/opinion/7/71/646763/op-ed-wear-orange-recognize-gun-violence-remember-pendleton

Wear orange to fight guns and honor Hadiya Pendleton: http://chicago.suntimes.com/opinion/7/71/646763/op-ed-wear-orange-recognize-gun-violence-remember-pendleton

What Does Gun Violence Really Cost? Mother Jones, May/June 2015.

Why the lack of solid data? A prime reason is that the National Rifle Association and other influential gun rights advocates have long pressured political leaders to shut down research related to firearms. The Annals of Internal Medicine editorial detailed this “suppression of science”:

Two years ago, we called on physicians to focus on the public health threat of guns. The profession’s relative silence was disturbing but in part explicable by our inability to study the problem. Political forces had effectively banned the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention and other scientific agencies from funding research on gun-related injury and death. The ban worked: A recent systematic review of studies evaluating access to guns and its association with suicide and homicide identified no relevant studies published since 2005….

In collaboration with Miller, Mother Jones crunched data from 2012 and found that the annual cost of gun violence in America exceeds $229 billion. Direct costs account for $8.6 billion—including long-term prison costs for people who commit assault and homicide using guns, which at $5.2 billion a year is the largest direct expense. Even before accounting for the more intangible costs of the violence, in other words, the average cost to taxpayers for a single gun homicide in America is nearly $400,000. And we pay for 32 of them every single day.

Our investigation also begins to illuminate the economic toll for individual states. Louisiana has the highest gun homicide rate in the nation, with costs per capita of more than $1,300. Wyoming has a small population but the highest overall rate of gun deaths—including the nation’s highest suicide rate—with costs working out to about $1,400 per resident. Among the four most populous states, the costs per capita in the gun rights strongholds of Florida and Texas outpace those in more strictly regulated California and New York. Hawaii and Massachusetts, with their relatively low gun ownership rates and tight gun laws, have the lowest gun death rates, and costs per capita roughly a fifth as much as those of the states that pay the most. [emphasis added]


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Day 2316: Enthesitis and Peripheral Joint Synovitis

Enthesitis…is the main cause of the pain, stiffness, and limited range of motion in the spine experienced by AS patients. Enthesitis often presents as swelling over the inflamed area, with patients reporting that the affected area is tender to the touch upon sitting or when touching selected objects. Sitting on hard surfaces can be extraordinarily difficult for a person with AS if the area covering pelvic bones is inflamed [29].

Ligaments bind bone to bone. Tendons bind muscle to bone.ligaments joints 1


Tendons in the body diagram

Patients with AS may also experience peripheral joint synovitis, an inflammation of the synovial joints that occurs in about 50% of AS patients, targeting the hips, knees, ankles, fingers, and toes….It appears to affect not only the synovial lining of the joints [as in rheumatoid arthritis] but it also affects the joint capsule, the enthesitis attachments, and even the lining of the bones….it can affect an entire finger [not just the joints] or toe, and sometimes the locations can be just one, two, or three joints around the body in what seems like a random pattern [30].

Weisman, M. Ankylosing Spondylitis. Oxford: Oxford UP, 2011. Print.

The structure of synovial joints

I forgot my anti-inflammatory yesterday.

It feels like fireworks and scatter bombs are going off all over me: fingers, wrists, elbows, shoulders, spine, SI joints, coccyx, feet, toes. Even my scalp hurts today. 

Ankylosing Spondylitis

Ankylosing Spondylitis: Myths from Drugs.com


“inflammatory arthritis” + “pain management” = Tylenol?!?


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Day 2311 of daily, much of it severe, pain from AS. It started like most do:

I’m half-awake, half-falling asleep for 2 or so hours, turning or changing position every 15-20 minutes to move off one sharp pain, throbbing, stabbing, shooting, or numbness or another. Then I’m fully awake because

a) my heels are throbbing, or

b) my lower back is so sore my ribs hurt, or

c) my spine is so sore my ribs hurt, or

d) my ribs hurt so much my spine hurts, or most likely,

e) all of the above.

And my spine feels red. And hot. And my stomach is cramping. Some of my finger joints feel swollen and/or stuck in position. A few fingertips are numb or going numb, along with 2 or 3 of my toes.

It’s not that I have trouble getting out of bed—it just hurts and I have to be careful not to make it more painful. Roll to the side. Breathe. Which hurts my ribs. Bring knees up. Breathe gently. Push up with my hands, swing legs off the bed. Breathe gently. Push to my feet and not curse because the soles of my feet feel like I’m walking on rocks. 

Stretching is too painful. I need time to build up to that, to psyche up for it.

It hurts to sit so I do it as long as I can, stand or walk a circle, sit again, stand or walk again, sit again….Every 10-20 minutes, the pain [SI joints, lower back and ass–oh, the ass pain–, spine, ribs] increases enough that I have to move, though sometimes I can do so without cursing, grimacing, or growling. Growling is my new favorite.

That gets me to about 7 a.m. When the fatigue settles back in.

I do yoga. Slowly. Not very well. I meditate. Not very long because of the sitting thing. I take a shower.

By 10 a.m., I’m ready to go back to bed.

And it’s 10 a.m.

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Ankylosing Spondylitis


“inflammatory arthritis” + “pain management” = Tylenol?!?

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